i always sound like and look like i'm fine but things are starting to catch up to me

and i would get imposter syndrome again and again for years, like i'm being haunted by things i'm not sure i could. It's here again, just today. and god, it is not like i haven't tried. I truly have. It just feels like i have to go on harder, and this isn't me complaining, it's me showing through the cracks of my little brave face mask i'd worn for some time

and i really don't want to fall into a depressive episode right now ! I'm so on top of my game :/