God and I ~ It’s Complicated
Yes, indeed. He and I have had an ongoing argument over some shit that’s lasted just over a decade.
We have a really complicated relationship.
And even he, the most high of it all, is not above reproach.
Yeah, yeah…, I know…
I just pissed off 6 people.
Well guess what, sinners…, God commanded you not to judge me so go do your damn Rosary until the 5th big bead.
Yup, raised in a semi-Catholic manner by a supposed Catholic father and a Protestant mother. Both of whom forced their 5 kids to walk to church every Sunday as they did their own things.
Indoctrinated and confirmed.
Confused and questioning.
Sad, Mad, and all kinds of lonely….
Though that has nothing to do with this. God has other things to answer for in my estimation. Not the least among them his unwillingness to answer me.
I could go into all of it, but I don’t really feel like it right now.
Go ahead and judge that too.
Sinner!
Me, I’m not judging anyone but myself.
Who am I to question anything?
Least of all God our Lord.
Or Jesus our savior…, who as it turns out didn’t really save any of us from anything, apparently…
Or else why are we all spinning out on a planet spinning out ?
Can we rename him Jesus the Delayer of a Few thousand years ?
The Almighty All-Knowing God our Lord…, if I am to believe what I have been taught, has the power to end all suffering and to reclaim this world in his name from those sinning fucking billionaires that have complete control of all the money, resources, and power to be had on this planet.
And yet he sits idle.
Perhaps I listened too hard and learned not well?
His plan, as the Bible says…, is to let them consume everything and enslave everyone, until he himself decides the time is right to burn us all in fire and brimstone in order to reclaim all the good souls….
Seriously ? That’s an Ever-loving, and everlasting God’s plan for us all..?
Pfft !
Do it tomorrow, then!
Why wait..?
I guess we’re all God Damned !?!
All of us abandoned in one way or another.
But don’t waste a decade of your days arguing with the one thing that supposedly has your back and loves you like he’s kind.
Over 3,650 days of constant sorrow and overwhelming pain.
And where’s my God?
Nowhere to be found.
My son’s still gone.
I’m still here.
Maybe someday God will grant me some grace?
Or perhaps I was just meant to suffer it all out like some fucked up kind of lesson? Maybe everyone needs to carry some God Damned cross of their own if they ever expect to be in heaven?
God damn it!
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We have a really complicated relationship.
And even he, the most high of it all, is not above reproach.
Yeah, yeah…, I know…
I just pissed off 6 people.
Well guess what, sinners…, God commanded you not to judge me so go do your damn Rosary until the 5th big bead.
Yup, raised in a semi-Catholic manner by a supposed Catholic father and a Protestant mother. Both of whom forced their 5 kids to walk to church every Sunday as they did their own things.
Indoctrinated and confirmed.
Confused and questioning.
Sad, Mad, and all kinds of lonely….
Though that has nothing to do with this. God has other things to answer for in my estimation. Not the least among them his unwillingness to answer me.
I could go into all of it, but I don’t really feel like it right now.
Go ahead and judge that too.
Sinner!
Me, I’m not judging anyone but myself.
Who am I to question anything?
Least of all God our Lord.
Or Jesus our savior…, who as it turns out didn’t really save any of us from anything, apparently…
Or else why are we all spinning out on a planet spinning out ?
Can we rename him Jesus the Delayer of a Few thousand years ?
The Almighty All-Knowing God our Lord…, if I am to believe what I have been taught, has the power to end all suffering and to reclaim this world in his name from those sinning fucking billionaires that have complete control of all the money, resources, and power to be had on this planet.
And yet he sits idle.
Perhaps I listened too hard and learned not well?
His plan, as the Bible says…, is to let them consume everything and enslave everyone, until he himself decides the time is right to burn us all in fire and brimstone in order to reclaim all the good souls….
Seriously ? That’s an Ever-loving, and everlasting God’s plan for us all..?
Pfft !
Do it tomorrow, then!
Why wait..?
I guess we’re all God Damned !?!
All of us abandoned in one way or another.
But don’t waste a decade of your days arguing with the one thing that supposedly has your back and loves you like he’s kind.
Over 3,650 days of constant sorrow and overwhelming pain.
And where’s my God?
Nowhere to be found.
My son’s still gone.
I’m still here.
Maybe someday God will grant me some grace?
Or perhaps I was just meant to suffer it all out like some fucked up kind of lesson? Maybe everyone needs to carry some God Damned cross of their own if they ever expect to be in heaven?
God damn it!
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