when i was younger, i used to want to die and i still feel like not being alive is going to be easier

I want to make you immortal 🌺

Same.
Now...I don't fear death, but I don't want to die.
I have things to live for.

i spent my entire youth wanting to die or feeling like i should be dead or not on this planet and i've never once felt "settled" i'm finally adjusting to "living" after actually having died a few times. it wasn't a bad experience but i did realize i'd like to enjoy some of the time i've been given here even if it's confusing for me a lot of the time and i'm just winging it. i hope you find a happy medium as well🫂

Sorry.. i hope you find a happier frame of mind 😳

That's a sad thought but also the idea of mortality does tend to shift the older you get. Change in health and perspective will do that to you. Well, for me. Hope you're okay💙