Dude I am 26.
What do you feel more intuitively closer to in age ?
I truly don't feel 26 . I feel 17. Its not like I want to be young but the age 26 doesn't land well in my body. Like I don't feel wise. As if I am simply beginning. Just 4-5 years away from child hood.
Externally it makes sense. Hear me out.
I experienced severe depression and dissociation when I was 16-17 and I healed from it just 2-3 years ago.
It has changed my brain, my memory my nervous system, how I connect with people. I don't know how to build friendship with ease .. because I truly question everything. I have an acute sense of curiosity that one finds in a child , not yet suppressed.
But it's a painful process because I feel quite powerless sometimes as if I want a parent or a community.
But I am learning. I am truly learning and adapting. Moving to 2 new cities after all this alone.
I truly don't feel 26 . I feel 17. Its not like I want to be young but the age 26 doesn't land well in my body. Like I don't feel wise. As if I am simply beginning. Just 4-5 years away from child hood.
Externally it makes sense. Hear me out.
I experienced severe depression and dissociation when I was 16-17 and I healed from it just 2-3 years ago.
It has changed my brain, my memory my nervous system, how I connect with people. I don't know how to build friendship with ease .. because I truly question everything. I have an acute sense of curiosity that one finds in a child , not yet suppressed.
But it's a painful process because I feel quite powerless sometimes as if I want a parent or a community.
But I am learning. I am truly learning and adapting. Moving to 2 new cities after all this alone.
