The silencio initiative
I shall make this post an attempt to describe and explain why I must be for the most part silent upon most things of a weighty nature, a peek into the inner machinations of a humdrum nobody who is seeing the imminent future as a dead end sort of route.
Now I will always be hoping for this route to last as long as possible, for this route as it is imagined is suffused with pure pleasure, the kind of pleasure that has no adverse side effects.
I take a cue from French philosopher Pierre Hadot, who saw the great antique philosophical texts tied to the Wisom traditions, where one finds advice on living the best life possible, as examples of the reader having a sort of spiritual exercise.
To approach these ancient texts with a fully present mind, and see whether it fits your inner core being.
I've always stated that nothing i've come across fits that inner core being, but I'm also a very lazy person, and it would be childish and silly to think that one mustn't make any adjustments to be living one's best life.
But why would I be so concerned about living my best life when it's all going to come to a close imminently?
There is satisfaction and pleasure in the very things one would be practicing in such scenarios, there's a sense of deep accomplishment when one is doing what one seriously and deeply believes is best, it's like the bedrock of decency being played out.
I see all the schools of thought, especially the ancient ones as being so many flavors of ice cream, and it's like i'm in a shop choosing what to have at any moment, this I must grow out of, to be more devoted to some that have the most draw to them, that to my higher judgment seems best, this higher judgment isn't selfish, or out for immediate cheap results either, but it's hard to talk about when one is in a state of unknowing, of not being an expert.
However with what is available, an embarrassment of riches, what is needed is using time wisely, of having a daily routine, of living with these texts day in and day out, and finding ways of implementing into actual doings and sayings what is being learned to be valuable.
And the issue with choice, i've always been of the opinion that free will is a myth, but it's more complicated than that, there is to be a seeing of determinism allying with this higher judgment capacity, or as the Stoics would say -- living according to Nature.
Yes the Stoics are amongst the select few that seems to align most with my higher judgment, but to say this or that at this time is to be saying things that aren't really known, there has to for me be a living with these texts, in a Hadotian manner, of each reading being a sort of spiritual exercise, and to endeavor tirelessly to see actions and sayings to match up with them.
Or there's a chance of this -- to use the William Blake model, of choosing one's own network of ideal texts, beliefs, one's own Canon.
It is all to be experienced in solitude, there is nothing anyone can say in real life scenarios that may influence me, I rather shall use resources of those who are either long gone, who's words time has tested, or those whom I watch videos of who bring to the table a whole array of accomplished learning to allow the attentive mind to stand on the shoulders who have done such time consuming labor, for time is short, I cannot rush things, each day must drag in a sense, it must feel long, sticking with the same things daily will do this, but with each passing day there will be like a resolve that strengthens, and that no matter what happens, there will be an accountability, and a pure pleasure in each of the tiniest things one does, for it will be grounded in a rich soil.
If I write more like this, it will be a part of my exercises, to make the mental spread into the actual.
Now I will always be hoping for this route to last as long as possible, for this route as it is imagined is suffused with pure pleasure, the kind of pleasure that has no adverse side effects.
I take a cue from French philosopher Pierre Hadot, who saw the great antique philosophical texts tied to the Wisom traditions, where one finds advice on living the best life possible, as examples of the reader having a sort of spiritual exercise.
To approach these ancient texts with a fully present mind, and see whether it fits your inner core being.
I've always stated that nothing i've come across fits that inner core being, but I'm also a very lazy person, and it would be childish and silly to think that one mustn't make any adjustments to be living one's best life.
But why would I be so concerned about living my best life when it's all going to come to a close imminently?
There is satisfaction and pleasure in the very things one would be practicing in such scenarios, there's a sense of deep accomplishment when one is doing what one seriously and deeply believes is best, it's like the bedrock of decency being played out.
I see all the schools of thought, especially the ancient ones as being so many flavors of ice cream, and it's like i'm in a shop choosing what to have at any moment, this I must grow out of, to be more devoted to some that have the most draw to them, that to my higher judgment seems best, this higher judgment isn't selfish, or out for immediate cheap results either, but it's hard to talk about when one is in a state of unknowing, of not being an expert.
However with what is available, an embarrassment of riches, what is needed is using time wisely, of having a daily routine, of living with these texts day in and day out, and finding ways of implementing into actual doings and sayings what is being learned to be valuable.
And the issue with choice, i've always been of the opinion that free will is a myth, but it's more complicated than that, there is to be a seeing of determinism allying with this higher judgment capacity, or as the Stoics would say -- living according to Nature.
Yes the Stoics are amongst the select few that seems to align most with my higher judgment, but to say this or that at this time is to be saying things that aren't really known, there has to for me be a living with these texts, in a Hadotian manner, of each reading being a sort of spiritual exercise, and to endeavor tirelessly to see actions and sayings to match up with them.
Or there's a chance of this -- to use the William Blake model, of choosing one's own network of ideal texts, beliefs, one's own Canon.
It is all to be experienced in solitude, there is nothing anyone can say in real life scenarios that may influence me, I rather shall use resources of those who are either long gone, who's words time has tested, or those whom I watch videos of who bring to the table a whole array of accomplished learning to allow the attentive mind to stand on the shoulders who have done such time consuming labor, for time is short, I cannot rush things, each day must drag in a sense, it must feel long, sticking with the same things daily will do this, but with each passing day there will be like a resolve that strengthens, and that no matter what happens, there will be an accountability, and a pure pleasure in each of the tiniest things one does, for it will be grounded in a rich soil.
If I write more like this, it will be a part of my exercises, to make the mental spread into the actual.
46-50, M