why do i get so angry with this behaviour online
i've seen a few people on youtube videos i frequent recently, posting what i think are absurd opinions, posting things intended to 'rile' and ' annoy' people like me, usually i ignore that, but not this time, i took the bait and i replied to these two users on this video, one, some white woman from here in the uk, (i'm caucasian myself) , and some american male , i answered each comment stating my opposing views, throwing question marks at them left right and centre, with the intention of ' extracting' answers or responses from each of them.
but neither of them responded? and that made me even more angrier and i sat here clenching my teeth....because i saw that not only as weak & cowardly, but also very annoying, why they didn't respond.....i then thought that these people probably think ' that's it ' from their side, because they posted comments with the purpose to get a reaction, and they got one, from me.....so with their cowardly mind trickery behaviour, that's it, they've achieved their purpose......but i felt really enraged at that, and still am hours later after i commented.
also, i saw their no response as a form of not acknowledging me and none validation, which made me even more angry at that......so angry at that the way some people just ' stop' when challenged intensely, like i challenged them................honestly i get so angry with people and their comments on social media.
i get so extremely angry, clenched teeth, intense anger, the sort of anger that goes beyond most people's comprehension, the type of anger my horrible dad used to show me as a teen when i was having anger problems because of my mental disorders, this is the type of intense anger which was instilled into me, which is what comes out, when i see these users on youtube provoke me with their comments...... because i'm in direct opposition to the views they are posting.....as i am with quite a lot of people, i stand alone in much of what i think, but stand by it no matter what.
this post was longer than i wanted, but just wanted to describe the situation on youtube videos recently.
but neither of them responded? and that made me even more angrier and i sat here clenching my teeth....because i saw that not only as weak & cowardly, but also very annoying, why they didn't respond.....i then thought that these people probably think ' that's it ' from their side, because they posted comments with the purpose to get a reaction, and they got one, from me.....so with their cowardly mind trickery behaviour, that's it, they've achieved their purpose......but i felt really enraged at that, and still am hours later after i commented.
also, i saw their no response as a form of not acknowledging me and none validation, which made me even more angry at that......so angry at that the way some people just ' stop' when challenged intensely, like i challenged them................honestly i get so angry with people and their comments on social media.
i get so extremely angry, clenched teeth, intense anger, the sort of anger that goes beyond most people's comprehension, the type of anger my horrible dad used to show me as a teen when i was having anger problems because of my mental disorders, this is the type of intense anger which was instilled into me, which is what comes out, when i see these users on youtube provoke me with their comments...... because i'm in direct opposition to the views they are posting.....as i am with quite a lot of people, i stand alone in much of what i think, but stand by it no matter what.
this post was longer than i wanted, but just wanted to describe the situation on youtube videos recently.
46-50, M
