what does this way of thinking mean psychologically
i get trapped in this way of thinking, a lot through my life really.
for eg, there's a few nice women i'm subscribed to on youtube, been subscribed to them years, the two women in particular upload about books and book collecting, reviewing books etc, one young woman is from canada, and the other lady from here in england...and for years i've posted comments on their videos and i always get positive reactions, my comments get a love and validation....and i get that way of thinking where i just want to be the only one who these women interact with, and i really don't like it and feel jealous when i see someome else comment on their videos and interact with these women...........because in my way of thinking, these others shouldn't be in the picture, it should just be me that these women interact with and give attention to......not someone else or a diverse group of people that comment on their videos, i don't like that.................i think it should just be me and these women interacting and everyone else, other users or someone else ( fade away) and not have any say in their videos............because it makes me feel very jealous and i've never liked competition at all.
it should be just ' that woman' and me, no one else. this is how i think when i'm interacting with a woman i like.
i realize this is not right, but why do i get like this, and how can i address it or change it?
for eg, there's a few nice women i'm subscribed to on youtube, been subscribed to them years, the two women in particular upload about books and book collecting, reviewing books etc, one young woman is from canada, and the other lady from here in england...and for years i've posted comments on their videos and i always get positive reactions, my comments get a love and validation....and i get that way of thinking where i just want to be the only one who these women interact with, and i really don't like it and feel jealous when i see someome else comment on their videos and interact with these women...........because in my way of thinking, these others shouldn't be in the picture, it should just be me that these women interact with and give attention to......not someone else or a diverse group of people that comment on their videos, i don't like that.................i think it should just be me and these women interacting and everyone else, other users or someone else ( fade away) and not have any say in their videos............because it makes me feel very jealous and i've never liked competition at all.
it should be just ' that woman' and me, no one else. this is how i think when i'm interacting with a woman i like.
i realize this is not right, but why do i get like this, and how can i address it or change it?
46-50, M
