Do you feel connected to your name like when you look at yourself in the mirror do you see yourself as your given name?

Not at all. The name is the last thing that comes to my mind when I look at myself. I'm so disconnected from it that I feel weird even filling out forms. It's only a thing other people need to identify me, I don't need a name for myself, lol.

Yet I'm so used to people calling me like that that I couldn't change it without changing my life in a major way first.

It would be actually nice. Let's leave the old name stuck to all the negative habits and patterns I adopted and keep saying: " this is what would **** do, you're [some other name] now. "