I wonder if you remember that night when I asked you when, and for how long after you answered you asked me

I may not have been completely honest when I told you it was the during the nights when we stayed. Though those were the nights that changed everything. You see, there were times before then when you would say something that I wasn’t expecting to come from you things that would completely catch me off guard, and I don’t mean that in a negative way, not off guard in the way of your raw and unfiltered honest humor. These were something different and would be on varying ideas, topics of conversation, random thoughts, and such. Each time it would completely stop me in my tracks. I remember feeling frozen as if someone had just hit the pause button somewhere inside of me, cutting off my words mid sentence, my thoughts would completely dissolve in an instant, stopping me of anything I was or should have been doing at the time. I would look over to you asking myself did I hear that right, you would look back with a grin of confirmation nodding at me, like you knew what you said would have that effect on me and were confidently reassuring me. I felt a familiarity in those moments as if you were dropping subtle clues that led me to a path that I could no longer find or had forgotten my way to. There were many of these instances that occurred during same time period you had mentioned when I asked you how long. I remember each time so vividly. I tried desperately to shrug them off as if they weren’t stones being thrown one by one slowly knocking down the wall that I have built inside my chest. You standing there in a glow shining a light inside mind revealing not only a remembrance of a past that existed in some other timeline or universe, but also a glimpse into a future I hope to one day know.