I rely on my subconscious as a guiding light when wrestling with the thornier issues. The old aphorism about "sleeping on it" with major decisions has a lot of merit, imho. It is in those glimmering moments of consciousness that the subconscious takes command, and has usually sorted through the thorny issues--or will have by awakening in the morning. When all the noise and distractions of our crazy conscious world has been tuned out.

Of course. I also think being more spiritual might be helpful for you. Listen to yourself at times like these

Yesterday I passed by the last bus stop in my residential area. It was sunny, a nice afternoon, a view on the city...I had a thought: I'd stop here, get on the bus, get to the train station, get on the train and just travel somewhere far away without looking back.

Speaking of woo, I feel like there ought to be Mormon-esque people going door to door to farms trying to cultishly convert them to biodynamic farming, that would just be a funny image to me.

Organic / regenerative / sustainable agriculture not good enough? Why not garnish all of that with something resembling astrology, and some "preparations" that require animal parts if you want to get certified (by an org called Demeter), but then which means, for example, no biodynamic wine will ever be able to be also certified as vegan-friendly. Just for fun, the founder of biodynamics, Rudolph Steiner, is also considered by many to have been a racist (I guess it was just something in the water in that Teutonic part of the world).

I only say this in jest though, I'm not actually recommending. To me biodynamics is a scam that adds zero value above the the completely rational baseline of organic / regenerative / sustainable practices. But a ton of people are on that bandwagon because it apparently sounds cool as far as woo goes, and makes for good marketing to uncritical eyes that won't ever look beneath the surface.

Yes I feel like it's screaming at me at this point

You should do it. What is woo tho