who am I ?

58 years old today and I still don't really know.
I'm a locked in a persona here that resembles ,but cannot show the real me completely.
I am more like me here than anywhere.
In the outside world I'm very shy and reserved and have a hard time interacting socially with the world.
And I have to say that sometimes I even have a hard time interacting here but not as much.
One thing I know is I dread filling out those "about me" questionnaires, as I never know what to say.
Read my poetry, I guess ,that would tell you something although, I don't have every poem I've ever written on here perhaps, I should start working on putting more up?
I always feel like the kid peeking through the window and never quite connecting.

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PhoenixPhail · M

I feel very much the same way and always have. There's something about interacting with people, be it on social media or real life, that doesn't feel safe. I've had all the experiences I want with information I've entrusted to people getting blown out of proportion and backfiring in my face.

I truly think people crave negativity about others. And if they have a misunderstanding or a NONunderstanding about someone or something, they'll fill in the blanks with some worse-case scenario to soothe their own fears and insecurities.

This is why I've become very cautious in showing people my true colors. They're just too easily prone to fear-based misinterpretation.

As much as I would like to find non-judgmental companionship, it's a good time in history to fast from people and keep my mouth shut.

By the way, Happy Birthday!
I hope it's a great day for you.
I always enjoy seeing you here. 😊