I like the # 3, and it seems fitting therefore to say something a third time for October 7, 2025, and be all relaxed and chill, stop this fussing about logging out and all that, I do however need to isolate my exposure to information to just my own things though.
This is a trying week for dad, he's had tests galore, and another this Friday and more next week, there's fluid in his lungs for one thing, which will be taken care of Friday, other maladies that make my head spin, and added to all this is his diminishing functionality, and constantly losing things he needs like car keys and wallet. Each day has a mighty hurdle, and so on, blah blah.
A good use of my readings can be scouting for faith hacks for him, last night I relayed to him a part of a book and he ended up sleeping well, so maybe I need to give that kind of solace to him more often. He's subsumed with worries and anxiety, feelings of not being worth anything, and when he gets annoying to me using words that don't convey to me what he's talking about and I ask for clarification a little testily, and he then pours down these sarcastic self put downs for theatrical show, well this part of Packer's breakout hit Knowing God, it's like you gotta be meditating on the greatness of God, be wowed by those awesome attributes, and then our problems are as if nothing, .... he doesn't spend much time with good material, even reading a book is too much for him, so maybe if there's any design to happenstance my route back to this kind of reading material is for me to guide my dear ailing dad into the calm and reassured zone. He ought to be gliding towards infinity gracefully, as the golden years should be, but it's such a drag when there's an inferiority complex, and so on, I need to be less annoyed outwardly towards him, and realize he needs comfort, and on the double!!
But I can't forget to be selfish, for where would the irony be without that component??!!
I long to make a definitive list of these resources, but I feel I need to work through them more to be able to talk about them through the mouth and not the butthole, haha, these gummies are taking effect by the way, I just have 30 dollars left for one more carton of smokes from my neighbor, I actually walked over there and purchased 2 cartons the other day, I don't do those kinds of things, but here I did it, and nothing bad happened, I can function in the real world, yippee!! Next thing you know i'll set up my own bookselling company, and on the bottom of each page of products i'd emulate Joel Beeke
