The best of times and the worst of times
When life and the world gives you lemons, you make like a bartender and make a 1001 drinks, not all alcoholic, nay none of them have to be, but this is symbolic of things that make up the best of times.
I had thought i'd try taking a taxi to the oral surgery place when i have some funds to my name, but i recalled how their instructions made very clear that there has to be a responsible adult with me, and i don't think a taxi ride would fit the bill.
I will have to let my local dentist and the wonderful team there take care of me, but i'd still need to contact my caseworker, which i've never done before, this is where my money comes from and i'm positively paranoid about losing my benefits, if lost, i'd not be able to sustain my meagre existence, i'd have to get run over by a truck on the highway or get into a controlled establishment like jail or a sanitorium in a catatonic state.
My tooth infection is stable, i can eat ok as long as i don't have to open mouth too much, had the best lasagna i've ever had from a grocery store the other day, layers of beef and pasta that i had half at a time.
Rationing the antibiotics and pain meds, and will have to i guess call my dentist's place next week or the week after that, as long as things are the same i'll keep putting it off. I must think of the savage resilience of those who lived in times before modern dentistry and medicine, how strong people were then, i have to have a sliver of that. And psychologically domestic dynamic handling techniques. The French moralists and Nietzschean psychological aphorisms are a buffet feast of food for thought.
Most of the time though are for novels mostly from the 1800's, but earlier is good, and early 20th century like Steinbeck, oh yes, John Steinbeck, for my pathetic little time in the Hardcore Literature Club they were doing East of Eden, i gave it a shot, but was bogged down with other things i wanted to be reading, i've always been messed up in the head, i left the Hardcore group full of delusions about me reading Reformed theology for the rest of my life, i posted there numerous times like i do here, and so from shame i won't ever go there again, however that's where you want to be with the creme de la creme of Literature appreciation with the deep dives, and the superb lectures by Benjamin McEvoy.
Best and worst, is a dynamic that also is like how it is with other things, i'm antisocial, but also love other perspectives, how like a breath of fresh air others can be, and yet, i can't function with or without, oh oh a U2 song crept in here, should stop and post so my follies be known to all.
I had thought i'd try taking a taxi to the oral surgery place when i have some funds to my name, but i recalled how their instructions made very clear that there has to be a responsible adult with me, and i don't think a taxi ride would fit the bill.
I will have to let my local dentist and the wonderful team there take care of me, but i'd still need to contact my caseworker, which i've never done before, this is where my money comes from and i'm positively paranoid about losing my benefits, if lost, i'd not be able to sustain my meagre existence, i'd have to get run over by a truck on the highway or get into a controlled establishment like jail or a sanitorium in a catatonic state.
My tooth infection is stable, i can eat ok as long as i don't have to open mouth too much, had the best lasagna i've ever had from a grocery store the other day, layers of beef and pasta that i had half at a time.
Rationing the antibiotics and pain meds, and will have to i guess call my dentist's place next week or the week after that, as long as things are the same i'll keep putting it off. I must think of the savage resilience of those who lived in times before modern dentistry and medicine, how strong people were then, i have to have a sliver of that. And psychologically domestic dynamic handling techniques. The French moralists and Nietzschean psychological aphorisms are a buffet feast of food for thought.
Most of the time though are for novels mostly from the 1800's, but earlier is good, and early 20th century like Steinbeck, oh yes, John Steinbeck, for my pathetic little time in the Hardcore Literature Club they were doing East of Eden, i gave it a shot, but was bogged down with other things i wanted to be reading, i've always been messed up in the head, i left the Hardcore group full of delusions about me reading Reformed theology for the rest of my life, i posted there numerous times like i do here, and so from shame i won't ever go there again, however that's where you want to be with the creme de la creme of Literature appreciation with the deep dives, and the superb lectures by Benjamin McEvoy.
Best and worst, is a dynamic that also is like how it is with other things, i'm antisocial, but also love other perspectives, how like a breath of fresh air others can be, and yet, i can't function with or without, oh oh a U2 song crept in here, should stop and post so my follies be known to all.
46-50, M
