this dude has been on my mind for 3 YEARS!!!
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am i crazy and i need to get a life?
are my feelings valid but i need therapy?
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Hi! I'm a 14 year old f. Starting highschool.
This boy has been on my mind for 3 years now! From time to time i always catch myself spending forever just thinking of him, going to sleep having fake scenarios of him, making music PLAYLISTS of him.. 😬
and the fact that i remember the hoodies and shoes he would wear... omg.
And i always get dreams of him, like.. for example, yesterday i had a dream about him..
But i don't know why!
For background,
I started liking this boy around 6th grade. We weren't super close at first, but then we would always see each other around and i always felt like he liked me, but he didn't want to admit it because he said he doesn't date friends... (or maybe bc i was super chopped shit), but he would always make eye contact with me, make fun of me/tease me, and i always questioned why i liked him too but idk. Also, a rumor came out that he liked me, he stopped talking to me for a week but we soon started talking again. I always felt like we connected in a way that no one else did. He would always have a girlfriend too. ( like this dude would get a new girlfriends every 2 months..)
And i would always feel jealous because i looked nothing like them..
like honestly we were really close together but i hated his other friends cuz they were kinda mean
Then in 7th grade, (the most boring year of my life) we didnt have any classes together, but i would also notice that he would purposely make an appearance to me. (like for example, walking from lunch, he would purposely walk infront of, or right next to me) and i would always catch him staring at me at random moments. Like, for the most part, he would always be around me but he would also try and make it seem like he didnt like me. (i cant tell if its because im ugly as fuck to the point where its hard to not stare lol..)
And i would remember that we would walk past each other in the hallways so i would DEADASS. dress up, do my makeup, or spray perfume right before i would leave class JUST so he could notice me. (ik i was sad and embarrassing but i was 12!!)
But the summer after 7th grade, all i thought about was him. and sometimes i would think "why do you even like him? hes not even that cute nor smart and he doesnt fit your standards at all!" but i would always find myself thinking about him every day.. I feel like he felt the same way kinda... he would always make eye contact with me.. do you do that with someone you dont like? like if you hated me... why are you staring at me like you want me then like huh
The start of eighth grade... I found out he moved. It devastated me but I still think about him to this day. I would still dedicate playlists about him, i even tried to get myself to like other guys but even then, i would always have him on my mind. theres something about him that makes me so obbsessed. He was always funny, and rebellious, and i acted the same way. I think we wouldve been better off staying friends but i also dont. I want to see him again in the future because i know he felt the same about me like know thats my man bro
This boy has been on my mind for 3 years now! From time to time i always catch myself spending forever just thinking of him, going to sleep having fake scenarios of him, making music PLAYLISTS of him.. 😬
and the fact that i remember the hoodies and shoes he would wear... omg.
And i always get dreams of him, like.. for example, yesterday i had a dream about him..
But i don't know why!
For background,
I started liking this boy around 6th grade. We weren't super close at first, but then we would always see each other around and i always felt like he liked me, but he didn't want to admit it because he said he doesn't date friends... (or maybe bc i was super chopped shit), but he would always make eye contact with me, make fun of me/tease me, and i always questioned why i liked him too but idk. Also, a rumor came out that he liked me, he stopped talking to me for a week but we soon started talking again. I always felt like we connected in a way that no one else did. He would always have a girlfriend too. ( like this dude would get a new girlfriends every 2 months..)
And i would always feel jealous because i looked nothing like them..
like honestly we were really close together but i hated his other friends cuz they were kinda mean
Then in 7th grade, (the most boring year of my life) we didnt have any classes together, but i would also notice that he would purposely make an appearance to me. (like for example, walking from lunch, he would purposely walk infront of, or right next to me) and i would always catch him staring at me at random moments. Like, for the most part, he would always be around me but he would also try and make it seem like he didnt like me. (i cant tell if its because im ugly as fuck to the point where its hard to not stare lol..)
And i would remember that we would walk past each other in the hallways so i would DEADASS. dress up, do my makeup, or spray perfume right before i would leave class JUST so he could notice me. (ik i was sad and embarrassing but i was 12!!)
But the summer after 7th grade, all i thought about was him. and sometimes i would think "why do you even like him? hes not even that cute nor smart and he doesnt fit your standards at all!" but i would always find myself thinking about him every day.. I feel like he felt the same way kinda... he would always make eye contact with me.. do you do that with someone you dont like? like if you hated me... why are you staring at me like you want me then like huh
The start of eighth grade... I found out he moved. It devastated me but I still think about him to this day. I would still dedicate playlists about him, i even tried to get myself to like other guys but even then, i would always have him on my mind. theres something about him that makes me so obbsessed. He was always funny, and rebellious, and i acted the same way. I think we wouldve been better off staying friends but i also dont. I want to see him again in the future because i know he felt the same about me like know thats my man bro
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