Early morning thoughts

For the internet to be dazzling for me is not to use it in an interactive way, but to employ the clandestine shuffle mode jukebox therapy approach.

All the interests filtered through a small amount of depositories:

YouTube, Audible, Wikipedia, eBooks being 4 most useful for me. So many more could be used, but i could be overwhelmed if i used more, if any of the 4 named could be exhausted, then i could move onto other depositories. But i don't see that happening, because of the amount of interests.

What does it mean to have this many interests? Does it signify a profound lack of self awareness, or a depleted self, a blank self, a cancelled self? Those options imo were getting closer and closer to the truth.

Everything is educational, but some are curiosity based, and others are bread crumb trails to the inner self, your most authentic self, serial killers are of the former, and philosophers of the latter.

You overfeed your mind with these things so that when you're in the half sleeping state you can play similar things to continually entertain and educate yourself.

Stopping and smelling the flowers isn't something i can do for the most part, although the idea is appealing.