I'm trying not to think bad thoughts but
I know that everything will end. Life just consists of us suffering what we must and catching the occasional break of some escape when we can.
It could be wholesome like the company of a human being but that will eventually fade away whether it's due to obligations or boundaries or the inevitable loss of health and life.
It could be something less wholesome like alcohol which will never leave us but presses us further and more quickly toward that loss of life.
I miss when I believed in God because then I felt like there was some natural force of justice and fulfillment.
I miss when I was a child and I thought that everything and everyone lasted forever.
It could be wholesome like the company of a human being but that will eventually fade away whether it's due to obligations or boundaries or the inevitable loss of health and life.
It could be something less wholesome like alcohol which will never leave us but presses us further and more quickly toward that loss of life.
I miss when I believed in God because then I felt like there was some natural force of justice and fulfillment.
I miss when I was a child and I thought that everything and everyone lasted forever.
