The reasons why i give up social media
Hello one last time folks,
I want this to be the way i sign off for good, to make what i say internally acceptable.
Reasons:
1. My expressive capabilities aren't acceptable usually in an internal sense.
2. You know how things are just wrong on a basic level? Well i feel that through my readings and so forth, i should be able to say things about some of the wrong things, but i must be too dense or something.
3. If not too dense, it could be just that i've lived in a way and in an environment which with my specific brain, and all my medical stuff makes it unlikely that i'll ever be pleased with what i do in a social setting.
4. Nerves -- Nerves is one factor of the medical that for me creates tension in situations where i ought not to, that better responses would be the way to go, like expression i handle things unacceptably.
5. The home life is very stressful and that effects whatever i do, and that cannot continue.
6. I do care about some of the people here, but for some of the above reasons nothing i do is appropriate.
7. Personal time reading, and with music and films all by myself is what is most therapeutic for me, along with sleeping, i have enough reading material for many lifetimes, and i feel an awe inspiring need to get to it as much as i can, if i were to stay here, that would be all i'd be talking about, and then 2 reasons against that:
7.1 -- I'd be ignoring what everyone else is doing and saying, and
7.2 -- precious time would be wasted in chronicling my reading journey.
Those are the reasons, and i believe what is written above is acceptable for now, but the mind is always going and will 100% for sure be thinking of what i should have said, i make clear here that that is how things operate on a mental level, and i say that even then, a bare necessity is covered here to close on, i am severing myself from doing anything further.
I wish all the good people here, some i know about, others i used to know, and others who i didn't get to know a very good life.
If anyone is helplessly addicted to SW, perhaps the way out is something like this, after deep thinking come up with your own reasons why it cannot continue, sever all ties, with zero anger and ill feelings, and just let go, float out into the infinite space beyond this little website, and slowly discover ongoing wonders unfolding before your eyes and mind.
For me, in reading alone i see wonders galore, i will research things, watch interviews with authors, etcetera, but never will i partake in any discussions, i am purely a spectator and consumer, i retire from active participation in all that directly interests me, and what i do physically is to make things at home as endurable as possible, taking care of things, and ensuring for myself a place where i can just consume and spectate in peace and bliss for the rest of my days.
I want this to be the way i sign off for good, to make what i say internally acceptable.
Reasons:
1. My expressive capabilities aren't acceptable usually in an internal sense.
2. You know how things are just wrong on a basic level? Well i feel that through my readings and so forth, i should be able to say things about some of the wrong things, but i must be too dense or something.
3. If not too dense, it could be just that i've lived in a way and in an environment which with my specific brain, and all my medical stuff makes it unlikely that i'll ever be pleased with what i do in a social setting.
4. Nerves -- Nerves is one factor of the medical that for me creates tension in situations where i ought not to, that better responses would be the way to go, like expression i handle things unacceptably.
5. The home life is very stressful and that effects whatever i do, and that cannot continue.
6. I do care about some of the people here, but for some of the above reasons nothing i do is appropriate.
7. Personal time reading, and with music and films all by myself is what is most therapeutic for me, along with sleeping, i have enough reading material for many lifetimes, and i feel an awe inspiring need to get to it as much as i can, if i were to stay here, that would be all i'd be talking about, and then 2 reasons against that:
7.1 -- I'd be ignoring what everyone else is doing and saying, and
7.2 -- precious time would be wasted in chronicling my reading journey.
Those are the reasons, and i believe what is written above is acceptable for now, but the mind is always going and will 100% for sure be thinking of what i should have said, i make clear here that that is how things operate on a mental level, and i say that even then, a bare necessity is covered here to close on, i am severing myself from doing anything further.
I wish all the good people here, some i know about, others i used to know, and others who i didn't get to know a very good life.
If anyone is helplessly addicted to SW, perhaps the way out is something like this, after deep thinking come up with your own reasons why it cannot continue, sever all ties, with zero anger and ill feelings, and just let go, float out into the infinite space beyond this little website, and slowly discover ongoing wonders unfolding before your eyes and mind.
For me, in reading alone i see wonders galore, i will research things, watch interviews with authors, etcetera, but never will i partake in any discussions, i am purely a spectator and consumer, i retire from active participation in all that directly interests me, and what i do physically is to make things at home as endurable as possible, taking care of things, and ensuring for myself a place where i can just consume and spectate in peace and bliss for the rest of my days.
46-50, M
