We're 6 months in, how has the year gone so far, how are you feeling?

I've been feeling a mix of emotions. The birth of my child is probably, the best gift i could have ever been gifted.

Following that, I've felt quite lonely and isolated during my mat leave.

I don't know what I was expecting but definitely something different.

But there have been pockets of good times mixed in with the bad.

Someone from the gutter suddenly decided to reappear which in all honesty after 4 years, I'd like to think they would have moved on.

I find life and people kind of strange, when you think you're moving forward suddenly something happens to bring you right back again.

I'm taking all these situations as a way to grow. But I've been feeling really anxious about the next stage in my life in regards to work and developing in that area.

I'm not trying to get too far ahead of myself (anxiety inducing ) but I feel like I need something to focus somewhat on to keep me going.

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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

I'm relatively fine now but I realized I most probably developed seasonal depression. The difference between how I feel both mentally and physically during the winter and summer got so big that I can't ignore it. I'm pretty much just in a state of recovering from some terrible period right now. I also realized how terribly low is my sense of self-worth and how even little things can make me spiral into the darkness. It's like...I'm okay in compare to how it was a few months back but overall I'm not okay because there's a long way to real stability in my life.

Mellowgirl · 31-35, F

@CrazyMusicLover yea that doesn't sound good at all. I would suggest speaking to someone professionally about this. It can be something quite easily resolved. Well at least I'm hoping.