12th day... I'm exhausted.
It is 01AM, I'm barely able to stay awake but I need to keep journaling otherwise I'll fall into the procrastinating cycle and give up this habit that's keeping me in check.
Today I had a presentation and I did it pretty well, thank God. It made me think how my depression is still functional and did not escalate to that phase of being a mute isolated person yet, and how urgent I need to go to the doctor while I'm still able to see some stuff clearly. (yes, I have the appointment)
Also, today a lot of drama happened at work and I had to be at the middle. The main reason is that I didn't want two friends to hate each other, but who am I to try to reconciliate them? I still spent a few hours just trying to hear from one side and the other to find a common ground... I had a good purpose, but it drained me big big time.
And I noticed the past two days I've been staying up until 1AM just to do work stuff (that I usually did in 2H max AT THE WORKPLACE) but no, recently I've been spending 5 HOURS in a 45min job (with no distraction whatsoever), just my lack of concentration.
I know it is depression but I'll still try to take some vitamins, who knows, perhaps it might help.
Today I had a presentation and I did it pretty well, thank God. It made me think how my depression is still functional and did not escalate to that phase of being a mute isolated person yet, and how urgent I need to go to the doctor while I'm still able to see some stuff clearly. (yes, I have the appointment)
Also, today a lot of drama happened at work and I had to be at the middle. The main reason is that I didn't want two friends to hate each other, but who am I to try to reconciliate them? I still spent a few hours just trying to hear from one side and the other to find a common ground... I had a good purpose, but it drained me big big time.
And I noticed the past two days I've been staying up until 1AM just to do work stuff (that I usually did in 2H max AT THE WORKPLACE) but no, recently I've been spending 5 HOURS in a 45min job (with no distraction whatsoever), just my lack of concentration.
I know it is depression but I'll still try to take some vitamins, who knows, perhaps it might help.
26-30, F
