Thinking about my faith heritage
I introduce this post after the below was composed to highlight here 2 important factors arrived at below:
1. I cannot fully align myself to anything so as to become a practitioner. This means using it alongside and inside and all through real life living, going to physical places, developing real life relationships and so forth, none of that is in the cards for me, and i is relieved of this.
2. The analogy of the inner being, our minds, being like the vastness of outer space, of the idea that within ourselves is not just what we know as ourselves, this then opening a way into the former statement, and a possibility for adjustment. For the solution to problems will only make sense when all the steps are duly heeded before getting there.
Christianity is something i've lived with and still live with, and can be many things to many people. For me it is a few things:
a) the highest meaning of it for me is that expressed in Reformed doctrine, and theology, this for me, is slightly different than what the church we go to stands for, and is a small but significant reason to forsake my own gathering with them. I am now newly committing my time partially to the structured going through of some of the best items i have here, and in the very least it is my punishment for being so spoiled.
b) that which is lived out and expressed by dad, this is what i reject with every fiber of my being. But truth be told, i see nothing even in section a) above where i can fully align myself with.
That is the impossibility of being a practitioner of anything rule that is like unto my DNA
But where then is your sense of purpose? Is it all just a meaningless party to you Mr. Gum Head?
My friend mentioned truth just a moment ago, the idea of one's own truth, i remember what that used to feel like, it was wonderful, you saw clearly where you needed to go, and you got there, but the thing which ruins it is crap like pride, we can think that we did that by ourselves.
Where does that come from? Just saying within, doesn't mean it's all us inside of us, inside is another dimension. Inside is the great unknown, it is like outer space. Our resources we use are like NASA probes going deep into the rare locales to gather information.
I must think through everything in a unspecified manner, i love to make schedules and plans and so forth to try to picture how i could get it just right, but getting it just right is a matter of going about it in a free way, an illusion of freedom perchance, so that our minds can operate to their fullest potential.
which brings me to the third or c) -- other kinds of Christians which can range from wow i wanna be like them, to ewww sick!! I get the least amount of information in this part of things, and also to be terribly pedantic, other kinds owing to books.
1. I cannot fully align myself to anything so as to become a practitioner. This means using it alongside and inside and all through real life living, going to physical places, developing real life relationships and so forth, none of that is in the cards for me, and i is relieved of this.
2. The analogy of the inner being, our minds, being like the vastness of outer space, of the idea that within ourselves is not just what we know as ourselves, this then opening a way into the former statement, and a possibility for adjustment. For the solution to problems will only make sense when all the steps are duly heeded before getting there.
Christianity is something i've lived with and still live with, and can be many things to many people. For me it is a few things:
a) the highest meaning of it for me is that expressed in Reformed doctrine, and theology, this for me, is slightly different than what the church we go to stands for, and is a small but significant reason to forsake my own gathering with them. I am now newly committing my time partially to the structured going through of some of the best items i have here, and in the very least it is my punishment for being so spoiled.
b) that which is lived out and expressed by dad, this is what i reject with every fiber of my being. But truth be told, i see nothing even in section a) above where i can fully align myself with.
That is the impossibility of being a practitioner of anything rule that is like unto my DNA
But where then is your sense of purpose? Is it all just a meaningless party to you Mr. Gum Head?
My friend mentioned truth just a moment ago, the idea of one's own truth, i remember what that used to feel like, it was wonderful, you saw clearly where you needed to go, and you got there, but the thing which ruins it is crap like pride, we can think that we did that by ourselves.
Where does that come from? Just saying within, doesn't mean it's all us inside of us, inside is another dimension. Inside is the great unknown, it is like outer space. Our resources we use are like NASA probes going deep into the rare locales to gather information.
I must think through everything in a unspecified manner, i love to make schedules and plans and so forth to try to picture how i could get it just right, but getting it just right is a matter of going about it in a free way, an illusion of freedom perchance, so that our minds can operate to their fullest potential.
which brings me to the third or c) -- other kinds of Christians which can range from wow i wanna be like them, to ewww sick!! I get the least amount of information in this part of things, and also to be terribly pedantic, other kinds owing to books.
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