August 23 update
Hello everyone, happy fried day. So it's 5 pm here in about 5 hours i'll move on down and continue watching my favorite bleak film of all time, and then keep going till early afternoon when the meds should be ready, they couldn't give it to me today, and while dad was working in my room yesterday he lost the 2 remaining sleeping pills i had, but he gave and will give me some of his meds, only fitting, i've lent him plenty of pills over the years.
What i need to do is spend even the money i would on more movies and or books on extra gummies and smokes, and then each month after get the usual so i'm always ahead of the game.
My purpose and calling is clear -- all i need to watch and read is already there, in these tentative days without gummies there is for me solace in good solid Reformed Theology, it helps having had a real impressive encounter with the esoteric stuff, because then Reformed is like the prodigal son returning and having a feast, but my parable brother is all angry and stuff because he never dallied with no esoteric stuff, and we're all ignoring him.
Nights with films, all other times in bed reading and sleeping, then with gummies 40 hours in the living room and 10 hours reading in bed followed by 20 hours sleeping. THAT's the way it should be.
I wish doctors and friendly church members could realize that, that some people like me just need to be alone most of the time with a dash of cyber friends and food brought back. When alone i must know how Uber would work in this small town which is just barely a technical city as of late. I know i could get liquor delivered, and i am thinking of doing that again, i just like feeling different, i like it so much that when i'm not feeling different, that's the real different, and it sucks.
Well, that should be it for now, take it easy, and don't sweat the small stuff.
What i need to do is spend even the money i would on more movies and or books on extra gummies and smokes, and then each month after get the usual so i'm always ahead of the game.
My purpose and calling is clear -- all i need to watch and read is already there, in these tentative days without gummies there is for me solace in good solid Reformed Theology, it helps having had a real impressive encounter with the esoteric stuff, because then Reformed is like the prodigal son returning and having a feast, but my parable brother is all angry and stuff because he never dallied with no esoteric stuff, and we're all ignoring him.
Nights with films, all other times in bed reading and sleeping, then with gummies 40 hours in the living room and 10 hours reading in bed followed by 20 hours sleeping. THAT's the way it should be.
I wish doctors and friendly church members could realize that, that some people like me just need to be alone most of the time with a dash of cyber friends and food brought back. When alone i must know how Uber would work in this small town which is just barely a technical city as of late. I know i could get liquor delivered, and i am thinking of doing that again, i just like feeling different, i like it so much that when i'm not feeling different, that's the real different, and it sucks.
Well, that should be it for now, take it easy, and don't sweat the small stuff.
