Undecided if I shall be able to remain here in Argyll another month!

Mama is difficult to break into, she knows I want to know why she left (when I was eight) but despite the visits I have been making to see her since I was seventeen she hasn't broached the subject. She seems distant, and I am beginning to wonder if my presence here is becoming more of a strain for her. I am going to call Papa and ask him what he thinks.

He is likely to be the first to tell me to persevere, he always has challenged me to keep going in all that I do. I wonder whether he will now, with the amount of time left in the commitment I made. He will question me about what has happened, how I have received what has been said and done, and what I think of my expectations. He will ask if I was expecting too much?

I am scheduled to remain until July 24th, the day after my birthday, but I have been here two weeks so far, and perhaps six weeks is too long.