Aaah life u truly are boring

Since I turned 31 I have tried to be 100 times more positive and life is all right boring but well. Today i just feel tired of life and the ways of life like money it has such control and influence in a persons life and i find it annoying now. My dad i guess i cant blame him he is the only working supporting the 3 of us and my sis got thyroid cancer now so meds are expensive and honestly things are so expensive now. I go the the shop and really try to by specials and necessary things but when i get to the till its so much then he complains all the time to my mum. I know he only complains because Im the 1 doing the shopping but i try to by everything at once. He goes like every second day and if u calculate works out the same . The shops are so ridiculous every time the price goes up they dont even keep a stable price in a week. Last week my sister friend killed herself jump off the balcony and was hanging there for couple hours before someone found her. I dont blame her life is exhausting and dealing with depression is hard and I also want to call it quits all the time.
Today i guess i just feel frustrated because i just jumped out of the car and my mum is rushing to come and tell me the bali is complaining what did i buy i showed her there was nothing luxurious there.
I wish I just had more money , i think within the universe there is free money and i wish that can come way change my life , go to overseas be exposed to a wider variety of guys , cause dating the local guys are rough. Wish I can find my true love parnter feel happy in my whole life I never had a decent relationship never met 1 guy who just makes me feel special. They always putting me down and i tired of my boring life.
Wish we could start a revolution has humans and fight the control of money so that normal ppl like me could also enjoy luxurious pleasures.