I'm not sure...? Probably fear? Most of my life was about survival, so I din't think in terms of a future. I survived one day at a time. Until a few years ago, in my early 50's, that's when I started to 'regret' not doing things that I never even considered before then. I can do them now, probably, however I am still afraid of getting involved with something I am not sure how the outcome will be.
