Dear woman who gave birth to me…

It’s been almost 28 years since you left me and my daddy. I always only two. Today I had my fifth child and I will never be able to understand how you could leave your toddler just like that. Don’t worry though, I had an incredible daddy that raised me wonderfully and he is now my best friend. You are missing out on knowing five precious kiddos, but they’ve got a wonderful papaw and an awesome nana and poppy, too… I used to go through my dads pictures of you before you had me and you are beautiful, I don’t understand why I wasn’t enough, why you never came back or tried reaching out to my dad asking about me… Like, it would’ve been so easy to get ahold of us and find us. I used to get mad at daddy, accusing him of not being a good enough husband to you, but I was just a dumb kid/teenager, I didn’t know any better…and I still don’t know the whole story but even if it were my dads fault and he wasn’t a “good enough husband” WHY WASNT I ENOUGH FOR YOU. You could’ve left him and still been apart of my life. You loved me for two whole years. Wasn’t I important to you at all?
Some days I’m angry at you, which is silly because I’ve got a pretty perfect life. An incredible husband, five awesome babies, having another one any day now…a perfect daddy, awesome in-laws, my husbands entire family is wonderful yet I wish I knew you…I tried googling you and finding you but failed.
As I’m sitting in the hospital holding my sweet baby…I can’t help but think of you often, I don’t know how a mother or father could just abandon their innocent children.

Love, Destiny…