Reality of Depression.

Some people have those brains that release endorphins in response to stressful situations like working out or fear. So they get to feel good about difficulty in life. My brain never feels good. Ever. I never look forward to working out like some of us. I don't like it. The only reason I do it is to take care of myself. I never feel good afterward though. Relief is the feeling I would describe after working out. Same goes to fear. I don't enjoy it like some people. Some people love being scared! It's because they get those endorphins that make it exciting! It only makes me worried or anxious. Neither of these are fun for me because I wasn't blessed with that nice brain that's rewarding. I got shitty genes. The only time my brain is content, is when I stop to think and develop philosophies to get me through this slog that's going to be my life.