Toxic friendships…

Two years ago a friendship of mine ended, a very toxic and unhealthy friendship…I ended up being the one to cut ties because of something that went down…long story short I caught her mom talking crap about me…I confronted her mom and we got into an argument, my friend obviously chose her moms side over me, I mean, it’s her MOM. So the friendship went downhill after that…finally I just ended up blocking her number and on every social media. Well, we’ve got a mutual friend who just had a baby and I went to her baby shower in February where of course my ex friend was…we chatted for awhile then left. I’ve been thinking about her a bunch since February because gosh I miss her… But before the whole situation happened our friendship was toxic for many other reasons but I put that aside and just think about her sometimes and I get sad…I miss her…I miss her kids…I miss her dogs…..I miss talking to her everyday…. Ran into her today at the store and she literally apologized for everything that happened between us….& gosh, now I’m just thinking about contacting her and befriending her again. I know if I do that it’ll be stupid because she was a pretty bad friend…felt like a onesided friendship at times…but our kids were supposed to grow up together…my daughter misses her daughter and asks about her often……it’s all so complicated and confusing….but man… I’m sad tonight 💔