Misunderstandings.

My family tried to contact me again for the first time in years today. On the phone she asked me if I would see the family again. I told her "No". She started crying saying she didn't understand. I told her "I know". I would have said more if I didn't already try explaining things to her a thousand times before. I sat down in my garage, and I started to cry. Not because I missed any of them, but because it's been the same story my entire life. No one understands.

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SW-User

This breaks my heart. I'm sorry Sterling.

SW-User

Shay! I often miss talking with you, but those thoughts always have a lot of pain attached to them. Sometimes I think about what happened and it affects me so deeply I have to stop whatever I'm doing to take a minute to myself. Sometimes Payne gets angry because we know how much it doesn't affect you. You remember that example I gave you to help you understand? How you would have hated me? Well part of me, Payne, gets that way. Even though we aren't even in a relationship of any kind anymore. I still have such a bleeding heart for you. That's why I limited myself to only hearts and occasional conversations here and there. I'm working through it. Just an update. ❤️

SW-User

I know sterling it's ok! Do whatever you have to do to feel better. I hate it when you hurt. I really do. Know that I'm thinking about you ❤️@Conscience: