Misunderstandings.

My family tried to contact me again for the first time in years today. On the phone she asked me if I would see the family again. I told her "No". She started crying saying she didn't understand. I told her "I know". I would have said more if I didn't already try explaining things to her a thousand times before. I sat down in my garage, and I started to cry. Not because I missed any of them, but because it's been the same story my entire life. No one understands.

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It's funny how family can be the ones who understand you the least....Maybe they remember how you were at one point and stop bothering to get to know you as you change.

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My mother used to tell me I was a weirdest baby. I was too quiet and always kept to myself. Even then, from birth there was distance. It only got worse as I grew. The few times I would talk to her, she would get upset with me and call me crazy. I stopped trying after I realized I never once had a positive reaction from sharing my thoughts with her.

SW-User

@Conscience: Yeah we soon learn limits with people. Some people are damaging, the fact that they are sometimes family doesn't mean that we need to stick around and be damaged more. I think you made the right decision.

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@Kuronekko: Thank you. They say they love me unconditionally because I'm family. That's why they wanted to see me again. But they don't act like they love me, they really don't. If the way they treated me was love, then I don't want that love. It's too painful. I'm sorry if that upsets them, but no one has hurt me as much as they have. It's shocking that I'm still here today because they pushed me to a place so dark, I really shouldn't be.

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@Conscience: I hope you can make peace with it all for your sake one day.