Did anyone else went through this

I am turning 20 this year
And it feels scary
I feel like I haven't got my shit together even thought I do
I lost interest in everything I cared for
I can't get myself to do the things I need to be doing
I feel like idk where I am headed even thought I had a clear vision few months ago and nothing happened that would cause me to not have things go the way I hope them to go but still I feel very weird and no matter how I try I can't do things I did
I am not efficient I do nothing all do I just sit think about all things I need to do but feel like I am an alien when I try to do them
Like I sit infornt of my books read things that I used to enjoy and feel like an alien to them
I can't fix my sleep schedule like before
I can't push myself to do things

And also idk what life is about
Before I wanted to be a hard workin I wanted to give myself everything I wanted I didn't want to depend on anyone I resented my culture I hated it but now idk anything Idk what stand for what I want what I dont want I feel like a void