How to let go of past mistakes and regrets?
Just turned 30 this year. As I look back on my life mostly 18 yrs to now, I realized that I've wasted so much time and energy on the wrong things and people. I haven't been living life at all. I've never been to a Bar, Club, Dated, or traveled on my own, just to name a few things. My biggest regret is not going away for college. I feel going away for college would have made me more independent and opened me up to a lot of things. Wanted to go pro in football aka soccer but due to lack of opportunity and money I couldn't pursue it. Here in the U.S.A the sport was not that popular back in the days, but now there are A LOT more opportunities. If I was younger, during this time period I would have def went for it. Always ask myself what if. It hurts but its something I am trying to get over. I play pickup when I am free and currently playing in a local indoor and outdoor league. I deal with a lot of stress, depression and anxiety. Which makes me angry during games, so I get into arguments and don't play to my full potential. Through out the yrs I'v gotten into many heated arguments and rough play in games and pickup. I am known for being the one with anger issues. That has made me some enemy's and ironically many close friends. However outside the game I am as gentle as feather.
I am from West Africa and come from a very conservative and religious family. I feel that has stopped me from doing many things. Whenever I tried to be independent and do my own thing, I always get scolded by my parents. I currently live with them, I am helping them out of bills and other things. I want to move, but whenever I try they get sad & upset, especially my mom. When on Instagram I see friends traveling, clubbing, dating and living life and I am just stuck. As a Child and Teen, I was always told how gifted and talented I was. But I've wasted all of that. All I do is go to work and come home. That's not life. Part of the problem is myself, I am afraid to live outside my comfort zone. I feel if I really pushed myself, I can still achieve many things.
I am from West Africa and come from a very conservative and religious family. I feel that has stopped me from doing many things. Whenever I tried to be independent and do my own thing, I always get scolded by my parents. I currently live with them, I am helping them out of bills and other things. I want to move, but whenever I try they get sad & upset, especially my mom. When on Instagram I see friends traveling, clubbing, dating and living life and I am just stuck. As a Child and Teen, I was always told how gifted and talented I was. But I've wasted all of that. All I do is go to work and come home. That's not life. Part of the problem is myself, I am afraid to live outside my comfort zone. I feel if I really pushed myself, I can still achieve many things.
