Why is being an Introvert so Hard?

I'm an Introvert who also suffers from anxiety and depression. So I have the triple threat. At first I come off as very cold and anti-social. However people who know me intimately know how warm and kind I am.

I don't talk a lot and hardly ever start up a conversation. However if some one starts one up I will most definitely engage in convo. The only times I talk or am myself is when I am around family, close friends or whenever I play Football a.k.a Soccer. Does are the times I am really comfortable. But when I am out my comfort zone I am quiet as a mouse.

At my work place, my co-workers are really verbal and I am pretty quiet. When they have conversations, I don't talk much unless asked a question or if I have input. We are a small group of 6 designers. Sometimes I feel they think I am anti-social but I am just naturally quiet.

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BoobooSnafu

Me - I'm an ambivert.
Some days I struggle to even get in the car - I don't want to face the world, or even.one person in it - it's scary, suffocating amd frankly - terrifying!!!

Then there are other days - I can take on that world amd more! I stand up for thode being hassled, I step in and calm arguments, and if i can't - I'll take the heat instead of that person.
It almost feel like the difference of being a pebble at the bottom of the ocean ... To being placed in the sun to glisten.
But through it all. Introverted or extroverted... There is still so much I keep to myself.
Not all extroverts spill their entirity onto the world. Sometimes their extroversion Is actually a cover for All thr insecurities they hide.
They can live with just as much anxiety from things they keep to themselves.

kydflash · 31-35, M

@BoobooSnafu Thanks for sharing, really appreciate it