Have you ever fallen in love with someone you met online...

@MrPerditus1 sorry to hear this x

@Lovelivelaugh Thank you. I just keep pushing ahead though. Maybe someday, someone will come along and find something in me they like, but until I get myself in better physical and mental shape, I don't think I should let anyone in.

@MrPerditus1 That is so hard, I am sorry that happened to you, but I am supprised she did not want money?

@MrPerditus1 im sure you are perfect as you are, to the right person

@Silverwings Thank you, well it wasn't the usual catfish thing. Hell, she was better off than me. lol Her family owns several businesses and yes, I know they could have been faked, but I'd sit in Skype with her while she worked one of them on some evenings. There was more than just the texting. But it's hard to explain.

I've been around online dating for a while, so usually can spot real from fake when around someone for long periods. Not saying I can be fooled, but you get to know someone to some extent when talking to them every day for hours on end. But, this also proves I didn't know her as well as I thought. I figured if I messed up, the way she was, she'd be in my face about it. But not a word.

So, I just try to move on. It still hurts, but what can you do. :D

@Lovelivelaugh I appreciate that, truly I do, but I have to be alright with myself before I can be right for someone else and I'm not. I have a lot I need to work on before I'll be able to let someone in again.

@MrPerditus1 Soemthing was not right , you do not just give up on someone you care about.

@Silverwings I agree and it's the not knowing that is the worst. I can take it, though sure it would sting if she didn't love me or whatever. But just disappearing is hard. Not knowing if she's alright or just played me. Hell, tell me to f off and I'll be able to compose myself, in time.

Anyway, it's something I have to get past and I will. I'm not new to break ups and some were my fault. :D Just never had someone beat down my defenses, wiggle their way in (I wasn't looking to be with anyone at the time) and then just disappear.

@MrPerditus1 That really sucks, and I hate that word, but it does. It is cruel to treat someone that way, evil, even. and you do not even know if she is ok, right?

@Silverwings Exactly and she'd been having health problems just before that. She was letting me know she was going to be released and sent home soon. I also know that if anything had happened, her daughter, who I'd talked to a couple of times on Skype, would have let me know. So, for whatever reason, she just didn't contact me again. I can only hope she's alright and just moved on, though it doesn't fit her character, or at least the person I got to know.

I'm just at a loss over it and trying to move on, not easy but what else can I do?

@MrPerditus1 is that the only time anything seemed strange?

@Silverwings Yes, we were getting along great, so I thought. Like I said, we'd talk for hours and hours, in voice on Skype, even when she had a few nights she had to work at family business. She'd call me during the day from her regular job. We talked about everything and she had been making plans to come visit. She's from Newcastle in the UK and I'm in Southern California.

I'm not usually that dense, once I am in a relationship. I'm just super dense before hand. I can usually read people rather well, when given enough time around them.

@MrPerditus1 Have you tried to contact her and what about her daughter?

@Silverwings I've tried every way I know how. But nothing and her daughter used her phone and Skype to call me. So I know it's two different people, but never got her daughters email.

It's just over. My last messages to her were that I missed her, wish I knew what was going on and that I'd stop bothering her with all the messages I'd keep sending her. That I'd be here if she ever wanted to let me know what was going on or if she didn't want to, that she could just tell me to bugger off and I'd know she was alright.

@MrPerditus1 I'm sorry. I understand.

@Tomorrow I'll survive. I did the Army for almost 8 yrs, I can do anything. lol But thank you so much.