Why do I feel these things?
So today I was reunited with a guy friend whom, I haven’t seen in probably 4 or 5 months.
A little backstory, we just met a couple months prior. Still new to each other in more ways than one. We clicked and got along great and a lot of people around us seemed to notice that he’d treated me differently than the rest. Some thought we were even dating.
I have this feeling hat he was crushing on me but he was also engaged to be married (at the ripe young stupid minded age of 18.)
Fast forward, he went back home for the summer so we hadn’t seen each other in months.
Today he came by and I was caught off guard but when we reunited it was...almost like in a movie. I called him out and he turned around to face me and we met with smiles instantly. Talking amongst everyone but came closer to me with a lower voice and slight change in tone. “Do you want me to come back?” I jokingly told him no and we laughed it off.
I don’t wanna say that I have feelings for him because I don’t understand why I would. I’m getting over him and I’m happily pursuing someone else.
It’s just whenever I’m with him or talking to him I have the strangest feeling that I can’t describe....an odd feeling of comfort? Ease? Like I’ll be okay. When he talks to me, I feel like I’m the only person in the world and all of this is so crazy to me because of how stupid it is. when we first turned around I instantly felt a jolt. But brushed it off. I don’t want him. I’m an independent woman who will go after a single man who can give me attention. Not the 18 year old kid who thinks he’s gonna marry his girlfriend.
It’s just strange. I never felt that in my 20 years of life.
A little backstory, we just met a couple months prior. Still new to each other in more ways than one. We clicked and got along great and a lot of people around us seemed to notice that he’d treated me differently than the rest. Some thought we were even dating.
I have this feeling hat he was crushing on me but he was also engaged to be married (at the ripe young stupid minded age of 18.)
Fast forward, he went back home for the summer so we hadn’t seen each other in months.
Today he came by and I was caught off guard but when we reunited it was...almost like in a movie. I called him out and he turned around to face me and we met with smiles instantly. Talking amongst everyone but came closer to me with a lower voice and slight change in tone. “Do you want me to come back?” I jokingly told him no and we laughed it off.
I don’t wanna say that I have feelings for him because I don’t understand why I would. I’m getting over him and I’m happily pursuing someone else.
It’s just whenever I’m with him or talking to him I have the strangest feeling that I can’t describe....an odd feeling of comfort? Ease? Like I’ll be okay. When he talks to me, I feel like I’m the only person in the world and all of this is so crazy to me because of how stupid it is. when we first turned around I instantly felt a jolt. But brushed it off. I don’t want him. I’m an independent woman who will go after a single man who can give me attention. Not the 18 year old kid who thinks he’s gonna marry his girlfriend.
It’s just strange. I never felt that in my 20 years of life.
26-30, F
