Weird but...

I’ve always suspected I was on the spectrum... I dunno I’ve suspected it for pretty much my whole life. I can’t ever remember feeling indifferent to everyone else. My brain is literally wired differently. I react/handle things differently than everyone else. These suspicions went dormant for a while but are starting to come again...I don’t know mean to offend anyone, I just know there are different levels of autism. Maybe I have a mild case or something. I’m also aware that some people aren’t diagnosed until later in their lives. Some well into their 70s. Maybe this is all foolish. I know it sounds so. It’s just the way I am. They way I react and handle things. I don’t feel like I function the way a normal adult/human would. Something is off about me. Really..maybe I’m just underdeveloped I’m certain areas. Whatever it is, it bugs me. Geez, I need a joint right about now.