I want to just

I still think about you.

I’ve always received the call but never a spring to action. Though Our time together was fairly brief and disguised mostly by other commitments, I still think about what could have been.
Could anything have been?
Was anything ever there at all?
The closest touch
Surely rise
Will you ever fall?

I stay
Drifting on an open current
No trust
At bay
Though intention
light as day

I figured
Things turn out this way

I wasn’t the only one who had noticed the way you treated me apart from-
And I definitely couldn’t have been the only one who-
maybe just the smallest-

But also, maybe you weren’t true.
Or maybe it was all in my head.
Or maybe you cared for me

but weren’t ready to abandon your comfort zone. I don’t blame you.

I understand and I respect. As such, I would never do harm. I’m not the kind. I
know my place and that’s where I’ll stay.

Quiet but content.
Never a river
But a steady current.
You lie
Dormant
But underneath it all-
I vent
Because you stress me out
I wish you would just-

Take me

Or stop being stupid for a second.

‘Cause I’ve never been this sure about anything since I made the decision that changed my life.
I never told anybody that...And I wasn’t supposed to.

You’re weird and I don’t understand this.

It doesn’t matter anyway. Because It’s unnecessary to try and explain the things you simply can’t.

So as I move forward
With someone new
My thoughts
back and forth
Upon you

But without you.