@MellyMel22 haha thats the problem both my autism my general demeaner my personal life and history, its all useless. i can't stay in groups, i have a distrust for humans and such, so i can't stay in groups to learn musical instruments art or anythign in those potentials, i have a studious mind but lack of good teacher and inspiration my adhd makes sure i can't concentrate so studies fail too. beingbullied by both my family and anyone around me so you know my emotions are dulled from human love to human hatred.
