A truth about yourself you'd prefer not to be true?

I wish I was never born sometimes. 😔

I feel the urge to punish people who hurt me

That my meds are slowly becoming less effective, I will be eventually be trapped back in my nightmare, and will eventually be back in the hospital until I die. 🖤

I'm guilty of schadenfreude!.... And often I don't care 😜

I say "I hate myself" aloud and other negative shit almost everyday.

I sometimes act in selfish ways or for selfish personal reasons

@LunaInvicta

Personal truth: I'm right in the middle of final exams which also means finishing up lab reports, term papers, cramming, etc., you know, the whole Texas 2 step boogie.

It's ten days of 3 hour sleep nights, no exercise, cold showers for shocking the system awake, consumption of sugar and salt saturated fast food from vending machines, massive quantities of black coffee, absolutely no sexual release, and looking and smelling like I just came out of a 10 day wilderness hike .....

OK, truth time ..........

In a perverse way, smack my Southern girl bottom, I kinda enjoy it!!

It might be because it feels so fricking good once it's all over and the time of rest and recovery begin ... which means the resumption of all those good habits and the delicious bad ones!

😃

I seek approval from damn near everyone, even if they're inconsequential. Especially if they have hurt me in the past.

My past as in prison. Homelessness. Drug addiction. But hey. That's decades ago but yeah I wished it didn't happen of course.

There's a part of me that hates everyone and everything. I keep him locked away, but sometimes I feel him waiting to get out.

I have a hard time trusting people anymore the older and more jaded I get.

My demons keep coming out to play and I’m terrified that I’m going to lose this time. Bitch is, they’re playing for keeps and my life is on the line this time. My psychiatrist was hesitant to prescribe me on grounds that I might impulsively attempt a fatal OD.

Dark enough?

The only peace I will ever have is death.

I am jealous and envious

I guess it's my turn, I'm incredibly jealous and most people don't know that because I do my best not to show it, because it's my personal problem. But it eats me up from the inside. Also envious, because I feel like life is going out of its way to keep me away from it.

I get overwhelmed with missing people and places that much that I purposely don't travel or explore because saying goodbye is too painful and it ruins the experience for me. 😫

The fact I bottle in emotions due to either frustration or fear. Then, like a genie they arrive in often unhealthy or misunderstood ways of manifesting.

I feel i have great potential, but i cripple myself with fearful indecision

I’ve never had sex with a woman half my age

I stalked my first boyfriend after he broke up with me. I was a sophomore in high school and didnt understand that if someone breaks up with you it really is over. No amount of pleading would bring the relationship back to what it was before. All I ended up doing was look needy and pathetic.

I watch tv alone, just me and nobody else...

Procrastination.

That I compulsivley masturbate

I can't even say!