I feel like i am having a middle middle age crisis or something, i started to panic a little ...

I turning 25 soon and I haven't done shit with my life, I am a close indoor introvert who doesn't know the neighborhood that I lived in for 19 whole years.
I want to become an artist I have been practicing since a while But I can't draw anything without completely copying it, I was watching plenty of artists on the internet they are all like 22 and 17 years old and they all drawing like fricking Picasso making my garbage skills looks even more garbage.

I am feeling like giving up this whholart thing