Would you go where its clear you're not appreciated?

I moved to a city EVERYONE who knew my name hated me
they hid my kids from me for 12 yrs ,,they hated me worse when I took my ex to court and took my kids from her
All the church's around knew who I was too and the members actually treated me like I was satan to my face ,,one lady ,saying she was God ,,finger in my face and everything rebuked me in a crowd of about 500
The Pastor said she had to have spoke for God ,,no one had ever seen her do anything like that before
But God set my table in the presence of my enemies and He blessed me

(she did scare the crap out of me ,,I prayed and fasted a week ,refused to leave my home until God spoke to me and told me exactly how I offended him )
He never spoke to me ,,but a lot of His servants come to me and said that was not God and that lady was wrong ,,but she scared them too ,,
I thought God was about to stike me dead ,,I was just thanking God for winning my count case and here she come ,shouting at me with her finger in my face
"Thus sayeth the Lord " hell if she has been surrounded in lightning
I would have died on the spot ..

Now I have been here 24 yrs
Christmas my ex wife hugged me and told me she loved me (were just friends )
and her Mom said she was sorry about all the things she did to me .."I lacked wisdom " she said ,,I did gospel concerts ,she put the word out ,she stopped all that for hundreds of miles around ,she is well known in the UPC church's
But she hugs me ,holds my hand and looks me in the eyes .
"its clear you have done a very good job raising your kids
your influence can be seen in all your kids and grandkids ,,you did a good job ",
I am sorry for all the things I did to harm you ,,I lacked wisdom ,forgive me ".
I had a long time ago .

I am friends with all my Ex's except 1 ,,,its still painful but i'll get there

I grew up in a place where even my family treated me like dirt
now they all say they are proud of me ,,so yes I love going places where no one likes me ,,and proving ,,,You should never judge people on the opinions of others and you can't judge a book by its cover .

If I did not have thick skin ,,I would not be here
on EP I shared one of my testimonies ,,and was attacked by so many people
"Gods not real you brain washed ass hole "

I actually feared logging on and seeing how many notifications I had
but I face things that scare me until it doesn't
I am basically a shy person from all the verbal and physical abuse I suffered as a child ,,,can you tell it now ?
I don't run from opinions ,,I grow from learning what it is people don't like about me
If what they say is valid ,,I work on it ,,if its not I pray for them
It was the Church that killed Christ ,,if they didn't shut him up
now He lives in me ,,,you offend me ,,you offend him too
I now know who I am ,,all that hate ,,helped me to see it
Darkness hates Light ,,when I am in the right ,,I always win
Greater is He who is in me ,,then all the fallen angels and demons in the world