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Do you ever feel suicidal and its and effort to keep conversations up for them to think your happy and all you want to be is be on your own ? The more I feel suicidal the more I wake up to the false reality of life . Or is it ? I'm looking for a high all my life and when I have none of them I'm in contact with my real self which is a lot of disgust of the reality . Or is it ? Im after basing my happiness in others and when i dont get it i feel disappointed. Funny enough when all of that happens i have huge trust in God and that defiance I have in me says I don't need no one in my life to be happy and all of a sudden the peace comes . It's a strange paradox but it's true . They say when your at your best that's when to watch out for suicidal thoughts .

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BestMeow · 26-30, F

I don’t think I completely understand what your saying 100%, but definitely some days it’s easier to talk to others and be more positive

MakeAspirit · 41-45, M

@BestMeow I find it hard to understand myself but I find it's what I'm saying is that the devil is at its work . Bad thoughts suicidal thoughts , loose hope in God and then act out on someone to make you feel worse . It's a vicious circle

BestMeow · 26-30, F

That makes sense. I’ll add you to the prayer list for sure and I don’t like to admit it, but I feel like I can relate. Do what you will with that info 😅

MakeAspirit · 41-45, M

@BestMeow 😂😂😂 I say your the 1st one that can relate to me . I'm a handful

BestMeow · 26-30, F

Hahaha well feeling like you can relate to someone and actually being related are two different things...

I feel like I can, but only you really know 100% how you feel and I respect that :)

MakeAspirit · 41-45, M

@BestMeow 😁thanks