Remember.

I spoke out into the world full of love.
I emptied my brain's monsters.
They fought my monsters,
they kept me safe,
and I fought their monsters too.

But my monsters were too vicious.
One of my saviours saved themselves,
and let the monsters devour me.
Because if they hadn't,
my monsters would have devoured them.

Now I speak into myself,
in fear
of the rest falling away.
I keep it in.
I keep it locked.
But someday,
I'll have to open it up,
and take care of myself too.

For now, I'm just a soldier.
Fighting their monsters,
keeping them safe.

Hoping, one day, to find my lost saviour again.