How many of you get so lonely you can barely take it?

I always thought what I needed was to turn away from relationships. I never had one so maybe I should take time to myself and not focus on anyone else. Though I can’t help but feel that the missing piece in my life right now is just that. A relationship. A connection with someone. I’m currently where I wanna be in my life right now: awesome job, awesome home environment, etc. things have really been falling into place lately but I still get lonely. I still cry at night sometimes. There’s still one missing piece, one small empty space. I’m human. We need human contact and crave connection, which I’ve never had with anyone else. Can you imagine what that feels like? Well don’t. It’s not fun. Maybe instead of turning away from it, I can turn toward it and embrace it. Maybe I had the wrong idea this whole time. Maybe it’s time to let someone in? Maybe it’s time to go get me some good lovin’. Lord knows I need it.