Poem I wrote
Nobody would know how scary the mask I wear is
I don’t even know what I traded my passion for in place of everyone’s praise
For what am I insisting on trying so hard for to keep on running
Feeling inferior and guilty is what’s left reality is rising and blocking my throat
What is what if the card that life has thrown at me is really right
Others judge for me what is so simple
The lyrics I put my heart into isn't worth reading to them
Everyone wants to chase after money and fame
In the end, my lyrics are trash. Letters GO AWAY
Why do they all only look at me close-mindedly Whatever I did to walk enthusiastically the world
To them was hypocrisy trying to holding his head up in pride
People stared at the young child like he was dumb
Adults shamelessly worry for you after stepping, ripping, and making you fall over
Values surrounded with money their crooked compass
Don’t try to defend me until the end I rather leave than become like someone like them
Respect toward my dongsaengs who thought it was happiness and ran
To me above the night sky reverence for my brother in my heart
Every night I spend my lonely nights with bad thoughts
No one needs to hold me so I shut my mouth tight
With a glass of soju I anesthetize the sadness, in the end, it’s all one thing
I don’t even remember any more just what a dumb shit like me is
Hyung, I wanted to live without an ounce of shame to my hyungs and dongsaengs no matter what I did
The assholes who ruined this are living with their bellies full
Just as they don’t pay attention to the victim mentality they have left behind
To try to forget all the ignorant ones is like empty dust
Just like the pills in my left hand, my love has also left me
I know I want to leave and put down the weight of reality that trapped me and just cry
I think I need it I’m my own refuge, right?
When you’re feeling the loneliest and having a hard time from this world
I will pat your shoulder you can lean into me then
However, whenever I am having a hard time so that you won’t even be interested
Get far away from me, all the words of comfort is meaningless
Why?
The meaning of ‘hurt’ to me, no way only to the people full of lies
Every night I suffer from nightmares, leave me alone
I’m just doing my things
I don’t even know what I traded my passion for in place of everyone’s praise
For what am I insisting on trying so hard for to keep on running
Feeling inferior and guilty is what’s left reality is rising and blocking my throat
What is what if the card that life has thrown at me is really right
Others judge for me what is so simple
The lyrics I put my heart into isn't worth reading to them
Everyone wants to chase after money and fame
In the end, my lyrics are trash. Letters GO AWAY
Why do they all only look at me close-mindedly Whatever I did to walk enthusiastically the world
To them was hypocrisy trying to holding his head up in pride
People stared at the young child like he was dumb
Adults shamelessly worry for you after stepping, ripping, and making you fall over
Values surrounded with money their crooked compass
Don’t try to defend me until the end I rather leave than become like someone like them
Respect toward my dongsaengs who thought it was happiness and ran
To me above the night sky reverence for my brother in my heart
Every night I spend my lonely nights with bad thoughts
No one needs to hold me so I shut my mouth tight
With a glass of soju I anesthetize the sadness, in the end, it’s all one thing
I don’t even remember any more just what a dumb shit like me is
Hyung, I wanted to live without an ounce of shame to my hyungs and dongsaengs no matter what I did
The assholes who ruined this are living with their bellies full
Just as they don’t pay attention to the victim mentality they have left behind
To try to forget all the ignorant ones is like empty dust
Just like the pills in my left hand, my love has also left me
I know I want to leave and put down the weight of reality that trapped me and just cry
I think I need it I’m my own refuge, right?
When you’re feeling the loneliest and having a hard time from this world
I will pat your shoulder you can lean into me then
However, whenever I am having a hard time so that you won’t even be interested
Get far away from me, all the words of comfort is meaningless
Why?
The meaning of ‘hurt’ to me, no way only to the people full of lies
Every night I suffer from nightmares, leave me alone
I’m just doing my things
26-30, M