Am I crazy?

I had to abort for health reasons and because the father was a jerk. I'm young, single, studying, unemployed. It would be the end of my life, I would be undateable.

I had to do it, but I secretly wish I never did. I have counselling to deal with it but.

Recently Ive been having fantasies of being pregnant again, even for my friend, who has his own home and a good job.
I've been wanting to have a little human again, have a family, have someone to love and adore forever.

I know I'm being an idiot. I know that is silly, especially since my termination wasn't long ago.

It's just such a fascination and thing I want so badly to 'accidentally' happen.

Worst is - I haven't taken birth control since..

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Pherick · 41-45, M

I don't think thats crazy at all. It wasn't that you didn't want to be pregnant, you just knew it wasn't the right time for a baby.

Finish school, get a good job, meet a new guy and THEN have a baby :)

VioletSea · 26-30, F

@Pherick It's so hard to wait, especially for the right guy since I'm so undateable, but I'll try?

Pherick · 41-45, M

@VioletSea I can't imagine why you think you are undateable? Trust me, a young woman, with a degree and a good job, is VERY dateable.

VioletSea · 26-30, F

@Pherick I'm a uni student and I'm weird. Pretty, health, not too awkward, but introverted and my mund thinks too much.

The only men I seem to attract are men that I am not attracted to so I must be doing something wrong.

Pherick · 41-45, M

@VioletSea I obviously don't know you, but trust me, an introverted "weird" girl has alot to offer guys. Wait until you can get out of university and into the real world.

You will meet all kinds of new people, a university can be very homogenous.