Why can't I do anything right?
Okay, so this might be a bit of just stream-of-consciousness, for which I apologize.
Okay: I tend to give up on things insanely easily. I have always had the mindset that if something doesn't come easily to me, there is no use wasting my time with it. If I'm never going to get to the level I want to be at, or even come close to my competitors, what's the point? I'm a competitive person, I guess you could say, but I'm terrible at everything. I'm not athletic, at all. I'm not very intelligent, and I have no idea what I want to do in life. I'm already a year behind my peers because I was held back in pre-school due to developmental delays, and I have no clue what I want to major in. The only thing I have ever enjoyed is theatre, which I have been told all my life is not a reasonable career path. I did theatre in high-school, but decided not to stick with it. I took concurrent college classes instead, (Getting college credits while still in high school) to put me ahead of the game. That backfired, because now that I haven't chosen a major, I will need to be in school even longer than if I hadn't taken those classes while still being in high school. I just hate that all of my friends have a plan. Meanwhile, I'm too stressed out all the time over only 15 credit hours that I can't have a job, and I'm not even allowed to drive on the highway. I just feel like everyone else is so far ahead of me in life already, and I can't do anything. For example, in this computer class I have to take, I'm three chapters behind. Sorry if this was a bit long and jumbled, but I'm feeling really low at the moment and I don't know what to do.
Okay: I tend to give up on things insanely easily. I have always had the mindset that if something doesn't come easily to me, there is no use wasting my time with it. If I'm never going to get to the level I want to be at, or even come close to my competitors, what's the point? I'm a competitive person, I guess you could say, but I'm terrible at everything. I'm not athletic, at all. I'm not very intelligent, and I have no idea what I want to do in life. I'm already a year behind my peers because I was held back in pre-school due to developmental delays, and I have no clue what I want to major in. The only thing I have ever enjoyed is theatre, which I have been told all my life is not a reasonable career path. I did theatre in high-school, but decided not to stick with it. I took concurrent college classes instead, (Getting college credits while still in high school) to put me ahead of the game. That backfired, because now that I haven't chosen a major, I will need to be in school even longer than if I hadn't taken those classes while still being in high school. I just hate that all of my friends have a plan. Meanwhile, I'm too stressed out all the time over only 15 credit hours that I can't have a job, and I'm not even allowed to drive on the highway. I just feel like everyone else is so far ahead of me in life already, and I can't do anything. For example, in this computer class I have to take, I'm three chapters behind. Sorry if this was a bit long and jumbled, but I'm feeling really low at the moment and I don't know what to do.
