Well recovery for me doesn't seem like a possibility

@Diyanne my love of 9yrs leaving me and breaking me I haven't been the same since have smoked myself into lala land

@Cgr1994 [c=#008099]Im sorry to hear that...maybe I dunno how to help...but I can listen....Im a compassionate person...I feel sad when I see u sad...I just want u to be happy....*hugs u*[/c]

@Diyanne I miss her and the baby so much I miss her running to me screaming dada

@Cgr1994 [c=#7700B2]*hugs u*...I hope u keep strong..we r all here with u...[/c]

@Diyanne I'm trying but failing so bad I've got to where I don't leave the house and numb myself however I can

@Cgr1994 [c=#003BB2]I worry about u... Can u please talk to a counsellor...I really worry about u...*hugs u* [/c]

@Diyanne I see one already I've already told her life didn't mean all that much to me anymore and that I was starting to grow more comfortable with death

@Cgr1994 [c=#BF0080]Omg....u make me scared...pls see another counsellor...there are many other counsellors for u....[/c]

@Cgr1994 [c=#800055]Doesnt matter if u go to many counsellors...as long as u r safe....[/c]

@Diyanne counsellors are there for you in thier office but when it comes to crying myself to sleep or just laying on her side of the bed because I miss her or crying every time a baby commercial comes they aren't there for me then

@Cgr1994 [c=#BF0000][b]*Hugs u so close*[/b][/c]

@Cgr1994 [c=#7700B2]Im still here with u listening...[/c]

@Diyanne hugs you closer* I'd give anything to just lay here and another heart beat besides my own

@Cgr1994 [c=#BF0080]Sleep well...Im always here with u...*[b]hugs u close*[/b][/c]

Don't know if it's a nap that I need cuddling mentally and emotionally would help so much * puts my head on your chest*

@Cgr1994 [c=#003BB2]Its okayyy...I will cuddle u...I want u to be safe...[/c]

@Cgr1994 [c=#002673]Im a compassionate person...I can feel peoples pain...[/c]

@Diyanne you're a sweetheart thank you so much *curls in close to you*

@Diyanne I can too I'm quite a teddy bear

@Cgr1994 [c=#BF0080]Ty...u r a sweetheart too...*hold u close* *hugs u*[/c]

@Cgr1994 [c=#BF0080]Thats good....I luv teddy bear...[/c]

@Diyanne you play with my hair a bit you just might spoil me rotten

@Diyanne do you now cause I fit the bill

@Cgr1994 [c=#7700B2]Its okayy...I want u to be safe...[/c]

@Diyanne kisses your cheek that's the most anybody has ever cared in months