How do you deal with being lonely and living alone

@MartinTheFirst me too.

@ElPhonse How are you?

I was really bad earlier. Thought about breaking my sobriety from alcohol and while driving i thought ramming my car into a pole of a tree

@ElPhonse I sometimes feel the same. Once when I was driving I thought about driving into an incoming bus, and it was close too, just a second away. However... you will find better days. One day, you'll find happiness. Do you believe in God?

@MartinTheFirst yes, definitely believe in God but have spent about 2 yrs not being able to accept His will.

@ElPhonse What is it that you don't accept specifically?

My job was taken away, then my wife left, then my house went into foreclosure, then my daughters moved out and seldom came back to the house. I became depressed, developed bipolar issues and self medicated with alcohol. Still cant accept losing wife most of all. Living alone in big house thats quiet and no longer a home.

@ElPhonse Read the chapter of Job. You'll understand.
https://www.jw.org/en/publications/bible/nwt/books/job/1/#v18001001-v18001022

@MartinTheFirst i know the story of Job. My situation is very similar. Ive lost nearly everything and what i love most. My wife is irreplaceable

@ElPhonse Then you do know that it is not God who have had this happen to you, but Satan. You need to continue to worship God, and he will give you back everything. And not only will you get back what you had to sacrifice, but twice the amount of what you lost.

If that is Gods will. Ive done terrible things in my life and perhaps thats why i have lost what i didnt deserve to have. I feel like Im going through hell on earth.

@ElPhonse Then start serving him now, it is not too late.