Is this Depression?
A thought just occurred to me about an hour ago... I am tired of living this life. I want out. 🤔
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InOtterWords · F
iMystery · M
@InOtterWords I cannot watch videos while at work... and I why is it that everyone is thinking I said I want to kill myself? 😂.
I said "I am tired of living this life" as in "something needs to change" lol.
I said "I am tired of living this life" as in "something needs to change" lol.
InOtterWords · F
@iMystery im not thinking you want to kill yourself. I'm drawing out the difference between being depressed and being suicidal, I have seen both.
If you are looking at your life and how to make changes chances are you are not depressed, just bored, frustrated, fed up, a little blue.
When you are depressed you have no drive, no feeling, no attachment. You stop caring, you're tired but you can't sleep, if you sleep you can't wake
You're not hungry or you eat too much
You cut yourself off
You can't concentrate
The things you used to like doing don't interest you
Is that how you are feeling?
If you are looking at your life and how to make changes chances are you are not depressed, just bored, frustrated, fed up, a little blue.
When you are depressed you have no drive, no feeling, no attachment. You stop caring, you're tired but you can't sleep, if you sleep you can't wake
You're not hungry or you eat too much
You cut yourself off
You can't concentrate
The things you used to like doing don't interest you
Is that how you are feeling?
InOtterWords · F
@iMystery
This isn't the transcript of the video, if you wish to read it
[quote] I Had A Black Dog His Name Was Depression Transcript
I had a black dog. His name was depression.
Whenever the black dog made an appearance, I felt empty and life seemed to slow down.
He could surprise me with a visit for no reason or occasion.
The black dog made me look and feel older than my years.
When the rest of the world seemed to be enjoying life, I could only see it through the black dog.
Activities that usually brought me pleasure, suddenly ceased to.
He liked to ruin my appetite.
He chewed up my memory and ability to concentrate.
Doing anything or going anywhere with the back dog required super human strength.
At social occasions, he would sniff out any confidence I had and chase it away.
My biggest fear was being found out. I worried that people would judge me.
Because of the shame and stigma of the black dog. I was constantly worried that I would be found out. So I invested vast amounts of energy into covering him up. Keeping up an emotional lie is exhausting.
Black dog could make me think and say negative things.
He could make me irritable and difficult to be around.
He would take my love and bury my intimacy.
He loved nothing more than to wake me with highly repetitive and negative thinking. He also liked to remind me how exhausted I was going to be the next day.
Having a black dog in your life isn’t so much about feeling a bit down, sad or blue…at it’s worst it’s about being devoid of feeling altogether.
As I got older the black dog got bigger and he started hanging around all the time.
I’d chase him off with whatever I thought may send him running.
But more often than not he’d come out on top. Going down became easier than getting up again.
So I became rather good at self medication…which never really helped.
Eventually I felt totally isolated from everything and everyone.
The black dog had finally succeeded in hijacking my life. When you lose all joy in life, you can begin to question what the point of it is.
Thankfully this was the time that I sought professional help. This was my first step towards recovery and a major turning in my life.
I learned that it doesn’t matter who you are, the black dog affects millions and millions of people. It is an equal opportunity mongrel.
I also learned that there was no silver bullet or magic pill. Medication can help some and others might need a different approach altogether.
I also learned that being emotionally genuine and authentic to those who are close to you, can be an absolute game changer.
Most importantly, I learn not to be afraid of the black dog and I taught him a few tricks of my own.
The more tired and stressed you are the louder he barks, so it’s important to learn how to quiet your mind.
It’s been clinically proven that regular exercise can be as effective for treating mild to moderate depression as antidepressants. So go for a walk or a run and leave the mutt behind.
Keep a mood journal, getting your thoughts on paper can be cathartic and often insightful. Also keep track of the things that you have to be grateful for.
The most important thing to remember is that no matter how bad it gets… if you take the right steps, talk to the right people, black dog days can and will pass.
I wouldn’t say that I’m grateful for the black dog but he has been an incredible teacher. He forced me to re-evaluate and simplify my life. I learned that rather than running away from my problems it’s better to embrace them.
The black dog may always be part of my life but he will never be the beast that he was. We have an understanding. I learned that through knowledge, patience, discipline and humor the worst black dog can be made to heal.
If you are in difficulty, never be afraid to ask for help. There is absolutely no shame in doing so. The only shame is missing out on life.
Depression. Get Help. Be Helped.[/quote]
This isn't the transcript of the video, if you wish to read it
[quote] I Had A Black Dog His Name Was Depression Transcript
I had a black dog. His name was depression.
Whenever the black dog made an appearance, I felt empty and life seemed to slow down.
He could surprise me with a visit for no reason or occasion.
The black dog made me look and feel older than my years.
When the rest of the world seemed to be enjoying life, I could only see it through the black dog.
Activities that usually brought me pleasure, suddenly ceased to.
He liked to ruin my appetite.
He chewed up my memory and ability to concentrate.
Doing anything or going anywhere with the back dog required super human strength.
At social occasions, he would sniff out any confidence I had and chase it away.
My biggest fear was being found out. I worried that people would judge me.
Because of the shame and stigma of the black dog. I was constantly worried that I would be found out. So I invested vast amounts of energy into covering him up. Keeping up an emotional lie is exhausting.
Black dog could make me think and say negative things.
He could make me irritable and difficult to be around.
He would take my love and bury my intimacy.
He loved nothing more than to wake me with highly repetitive and negative thinking. He also liked to remind me how exhausted I was going to be the next day.
Having a black dog in your life isn’t so much about feeling a bit down, sad or blue…at it’s worst it’s about being devoid of feeling altogether.
As I got older the black dog got bigger and he started hanging around all the time.
I’d chase him off with whatever I thought may send him running.
But more often than not he’d come out on top. Going down became easier than getting up again.
So I became rather good at self medication…which never really helped.
Eventually I felt totally isolated from everything and everyone.
The black dog had finally succeeded in hijacking my life. When you lose all joy in life, you can begin to question what the point of it is.
Thankfully this was the time that I sought professional help. This was my first step towards recovery and a major turning in my life.
I learned that it doesn’t matter who you are, the black dog affects millions and millions of people. It is an equal opportunity mongrel.
I also learned that there was no silver bullet or magic pill. Medication can help some and others might need a different approach altogether.
I also learned that being emotionally genuine and authentic to those who are close to you, can be an absolute game changer.
Most importantly, I learn not to be afraid of the black dog and I taught him a few tricks of my own.
The more tired and stressed you are the louder he barks, so it’s important to learn how to quiet your mind.
It’s been clinically proven that regular exercise can be as effective for treating mild to moderate depression as antidepressants. So go for a walk or a run and leave the mutt behind.
Keep a mood journal, getting your thoughts on paper can be cathartic and often insightful. Also keep track of the things that you have to be grateful for.
The most important thing to remember is that no matter how bad it gets… if you take the right steps, talk to the right people, black dog days can and will pass.
I wouldn’t say that I’m grateful for the black dog but he has been an incredible teacher. He forced me to re-evaluate and simplify my life. I learned that rather than running away from my problems it’s better to embrace them.
The black dog may always be part of my life but he will never be the beast that he was. We have an understanding. I learned that through knowledge, patience, discipline and humor the worst black dog can be made to heal.
If you are in difficulty, never be afraid to ask for help. There is absolutely no shame in doing so. The only shame is missing out on life.
Depression. Get Help. Be Helped.[/quote]
iMystery · M
@InOtterWords 🤔 Well... you draw clear lines...
[quote]You stop caring[/quote]
I feel like this is what I [b]should[/b] do, but not how I currently feel.
[quote]You're not hungry or you eat too much
You cut yourself off
You can't concentrate
The things you used to like doing don't interest you[/quote]
None of the above lol
[quote]If you are looking at your life and how to make changes chances are you are not depressed, just bored, frustrated, fed up, a little blue.[/quote]
I think this is close to spot on lol.
[quote]You stop caring[/quote]
I feel like this is what I [b]should[/b] do, but not how I currently feel.
[quote]You're not hungry or you eat too much
You cut yourself off
You can't concentrate
The things you used to like doing don't interest you[/quote]
None of the above lol
[quote]If you are looking at your life and how to make changes chances are you are not depressed, just bored, frustrated, fed up, a little blue.[/quote]
I think this is close to spot on lol.
iMystery · M
@InOtterWords Thanks babe 😘