I've been with the company I work for for the past two years, I am bonded, and am a valued member of the team..

I still live with this somewhat unjustifiable fear that it call all end for me tomorrow. I mean, realistically.. they COULD fire me, if I gave them a reason to, but I am there every day, and do what is asked of me, sometimes more, so I really have no reason to fear this. I just... I'm so used to hitting such turbulence in my life.. joblessness, homelessness, sorrow, despair. It wasn't too long ago when I was last there.

I guess part of the anxiety I now feel is knowing that I must show up each and every day in order to keep on keeping on. I guess this is the rat race, huh?